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Tuesday 31 May 2005

One Final Word....

Since this just came on my playlist and scared the crap out of me, I figured I'd let people know...
This was "our" song...

Green Day - Time of your life

Another turning point;
a fork stuck in the road.

Time grabs you by the wrist;
directs you where to go.

So make the best of this test
and don't ask why.

It's not a question
but a lesson learned in time.

It's something unpredictable
but in the end it's right.
I hope you had the time of your life.

So take the photographs
and still frames in your mind.

Hang it on a shelf
In good health and good time.

Tattoos of memories
and dead skin on trial.

For what it's worth,
it was worth all the while.

It's something unpredictable
but in the end it's right.
I hope you had the time of your life.

(music break)

It's something unpredictable
but in the end it's right.
I hope you had the time of your life.

It's something unpredictable
but in the end it's right.
I hope you had the time of your life.

EDIT: I'd just like to clarify something, the reason this made me sad wasn't because I missed Kay or something, it was because it reminded me of times when everything was different and we were all happy.

Monday 30 May 2005

So my new Job...

I kinda forgot to mention that, didn't I?

Well I started last Monday and it was a really bad start. It rained. Lots (And I mean LOTS) and it was a long run, so we didn't finish early. Then I had an exam on Tuesday  On Wednesday it rained more, the run itself wasn't too bad though.
Thursday another exam (IT, probably did well in it).
Friday was good enough, rained a little, but it was mostly overcast all day, a little cool but nice to work in and we finished at around 2.
Today on the other hand.....
Today it didn't rain. Instead it was nice and sunny...not a bad start.
Then i found out the run we were doing was a new one. And it was BIG.
The problem with new runs is that people are stupid and tend to put all sorts of crap into the little recycling boxes that we don't recycle, which slows you down a lot. And did I mention that we had a huge run to do? I think I did, but I'll just mention it again.
So the plan was we would start at one end of this big area and another crew would start at the other end and meet us in the middle.
We get about 3/4 of the way around only to find that the other crew has only STARTED (this is at about 15:00 (3pm), we are meant to finish at 16:30 (4:30Pm)
So that's a bastard for a start, we run into them shortly after and they tell us to do this one main road and to go on and that they'll finish off this estate area.
So we do our road and we're leaving, heading back to base to unload the van, this is at 17:30 (5:30Pm), already late. And as we're about half way back, we get a phone call. The other crew phoned the supervisor and told them that we didn't do any work and then fucked off to leave them to do it all. So we had to turn back and help them finish it, meaning we didn't get back to base until about 18:20 (Go fuck yourself, I'm not converting the time AGAIN for you stupid Americans :P) and we STILL had to unload the bastard.
I got home at about 20:00..............
And that's not the worst of it! The worst part is that my arms have SUNBURN! My job destroyed my pale complexion :(
How am I supposed to look like a geek now?

Sunday 29 May 2005

Ehehehehehehe

I <3 C++

I made a chatbot, my first ever C++ program too.

It acts like a man called Aircraftkiller, or as he prefers to be called, "ACK".

http://z.drkclan.com/Kushan/ACKbot..zip

You can see it for yourselves, but if you do not know who ACK is, don't bother, you wont understand.

But still, I'm rather proud of my little proggy ^_^

Thursday 26 May 2005

Kushan,

Kushan has sent you a new personal message entitled "YOU SUCK!".


Now that's what I call low self-esteem!

Wednesday 25 May 2005

God dammit...

Pretty much 100% correct...again.
I swear, MEME's are magic...












The Keys to Your Heart



You are attracted to obedience and warmth.

In love, you feel the most alive when things are straight-forward, and you're told that you're loved.

You'd like to your lover to think you are stylish and alluring.

You would be forced to break up with someone who was insecure and in constant need of reassurance.

Your ideal relationship is lasting. You want a relationship that looks to the future... one you can grow with.

Your risk of cheating is zero. You care about society and morality. You would never break a commitment.

You think of marriage something you've always wanted... though you haven't really thought about it.

In this moment, you think of love as something you thirst for. You'll do anything for love, but you won't fall for it easily.


Tuesday 24 May 2005

Sunday 22 May 2005

Gah!

I think I know what Neo feels like.
You ever have a dream that was so real you could have sworn it was?
Well I've not been having those as such, but I have been having dreams lately that I can't tell apart from reality. And what's kinda worrying is that it even applies to some that don't make sense.

Like the other day I dreamed that me and some friends were in some hotel lobby at some place, and one of my friends had a tan everywhere except under his eyes for some reason. Anyhow, I woke up and was slightly startled that I was in my room, but then realised what had happened. Later that day I was talking to the person who got a tan in my dream over MSN and I very nearly asked him why he hadn't got under his eyes tanned...
That's just one of many recent ones, the "effect" seems to wear off as the day goes on, maybe I'm just not sleeping enough, with my new Job that I start today (in about 4 hours) I have no reason to have such an abnormal sleeping pattern, after a week or two it should fall into place...I hope...and maybe that will fix this thing.
Or maybe I'm just going more crazy...

Thursday 19 May 2005

Screw Tekkaman Blade, he's not even female....

*sigh* You know what's depressing?
I'm on a quest to find a particular type of Woman. I don't quite know exactly what I'm looking for, nobody does really, but she'd have to be smart, strong-minded, a little sensitive and caring. And badass too.

And I think I found her. The only problem is she's not real...


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Her name is Naomi Armitage, an anime Character. She's smart, she's "sexy" as far as animated characters can go, she's capable of showing love and what's more....

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You don't want to piss her off ^_^

What's really depressing is that in the anime itself she's not even real, she's a Robot. But one that's capable of giving birth to human Children.

Meh, it's a good anime, if you like anime you should download it, it's called "Armitage III", there's 2 movies (Poly Matrix and Dual Matrix, a sequel, which is my favourite) as well as an Original OVA (that was later cut down to make Poly Matrix).

I think I should learn robotics. If a decent living woman doesn't exist, then I'll build one.....

Tell me what you think I think of you, then post this on your LJ then I will do the same.

Wednesday 18 May 2005

I've been telling you for years.....

Nozzy: Holy fuck no this isnt happening again
Nozzy: im gonna get dumped again
Kushan: from the way you were acting, I'm surprised it didn't happen sooner
Nozzy: I jsut got dmped
Kushan: ^
Nozzy: thats it, screw girls
Kushan: You want my advice?
Kushan: Stay away from relationships for about 6 monhts
Kushan: months*
Kushan: Because lets face it, when in one, you didn't want it, but when not in one, you did
Nozzy: Kushan this girl was...ugh. She did all the things i wanted a girl to do when they were with me
Nozzy: How come it always hurts sobad
Kushan: right see once again you're not listening to me
Kushan: so I'm gonna go on and talk about lamp posts while you ignore me
Kushan: lamp posts are usually made of a steel composite
Nozzy: no im being serious
Kushan: this is unfortunate as any vehicles that him them are often destroyed
Nozzy: im not gonna wait 6 months, i jsut give up
Kushan: with a fatal outcome
Kushan: new ones have been made out of aluminium and plastics
Kushan: these are better as they absorb more of the impact
Kushan: they also bend, collapsing over the car or vehicle
Kushan: this means that about 5% of the previous force is all that hits the front of the vehicle
Kushan: you could drive into one with just a seatbelt and walk away unhurt
Kushan: which reminds me, you should always wear a seatbelt
Kushan: invented by the sweedish, they deliberately didn't patent it for the good of the world
Kushan: it was their "gift"
Kushan: now they're common in all automobiles
Kushan: just like CD players
Kushan: and soon GPS
Kushan: Global Positioning Systems can triangulate your position from anywhre on the planet
Kushan: the network of satillites means that there is always at least 3 of them in the sky at any one time and at any point on the planet
Nozzy: o kstop
Nozzy: seriosuly im goign through it again
Kushan: the little reciever sends out a signal to the 3 and they send one back
Kushan: by calculating the time it takes for each signal to return, similar to a ping, you can figure out where you are
Kushan: the sattilites then send down the information you need
Kushan: sattilites have been around since the 1950's, when the Russian's launched "Sputnik"
Kushan: you've probably heard of it
Kushan: it set off the whole space race
Kushan: after that victory and as well as getting the first human into space, the Russians were ahead
Kushan: the americans couldn't have that humiliation again
Kushan: so JFK gave NASA a blank cheque with the aim of getting the first man onto the moon
Kushan: and it worked
Kushan: Apollo 11 successfully landed on the moon in 1969
Kushan: Speaking of Space and blank cheques, the americans spent millions designing a pen that would work in zero gravity
Kushan: the Russians used pencils
Kushan: another blow to capitalism
Kushan: and a victory to the soviet Union
Kushan: and that's why Lamp posts are communist
*Nozzy has left the conversation.
*Nozzy is now Offline

Tuesday 17 May 2005

Everybody's changing...

This is an example as to how things can change in a short period of time.


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On the left is my passport photograph. It was taken just at the end of 2002.
On the right is a new passport sized photograph taken just days ago. Just over 2 years and look at how different I am :/

Monday 16 May 2005

So, being a bastard..

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Alright, I'll admit it, the previous two posts were very Childish and immature and simply to provoke Sam. So Sue me. He came on here and did the Same to me, but will he ever admit that he was being an ass or that it was just to piss me off? Like hell he will, he'll have some greater purpose which has something to do with me being wrong anyway.

I'll admit one thing, it was kinda fun deliberately being a cunt for once, but I'd rather not make a habit of it. Sam's off my Friend's list, I'm probably off of his so as long as neither of us gets bored and decides to read the other's LJ, that shouldn't happen again.
Oh and FYI, If he DOES try to send me on a guilt trip again, it WILL provoke me and I WILL do something to piss him off more (Like I did by quoting the lovely Miss Kayleigh :) ).

ANYHOO, no need to dwell on this any longer, the whole thing has gone on for too long, been blown way out of proportion and every single person involved needs a good slap, even me. Although the Cat guy hasn't actually succumb to pure immaturity yet as far as I'm aware, fair do's to him.

And while I'm on that subject, even though Kayleigh is well pissed at me (for Quoting her >_> although she'd decided to cut me out by then without telling me so it's no major loss) I'll say one thing, if those 2 really are in love then go them, everyone else could do with leaving them the fuck alone, ESPECIALLY Sam, who's quite simply jealous and upset that he got dumped. Something a lot of people seem to overlook is that Kay was his first gf, so this is the first time he's ever been dumped and he's taking it badly. I hope he gets used to it, because in real life, people will dump you all the time for someone who's older/better looking/taller/richer/etc. than you.

EDIT: FYI - I'm not sucking up to her, I don't give a flying fuck what she thinks of me, I'm just stating my own opinion, if she doesn't like me for who I am that's too bad, and that goes for everyone.

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So lets see, what have I been up to in the past few days?
Nothing major to speak about, I put the pictures for Queen up a few days ago and forgot to post them, but here you go:

http://photobucket.com/albums/v438/neoKushan/Queen/

I didn't bother cutting out the crap ones, once again I was too lazy :P

I ran out of Hard drive space. 200Gb just doesn't cut it these days :/
So me being me, instead of doing the sensible thing and deleting stuff, I bought and installed a 120Gb Hard drive. That should last me like...a week?....

Still can't get over the girl at Javaman (local coffee place), I stood talking to her for like an hour today, she even gave me free coffee. Dammit, if only I had the guts to ask her out :(
Normally I wouldn't have such a problem with it, there's actually about 3 girls who are seemingly after ME that I wouldn't have a problem asking out, it's just that Sarah (Javagirl) is...well...kinda beyond me...
Ah well, there you have it, a little glimpse into the mind of Kushan, been a while since I divulged such information on LJ :P

Roflcopter

You know, I always thought that provoking people was just to be an asshole.
But guess what, it serves a purpose after all, it allows you to vent some anger, get back at people for doing the same, or just generally being assholes AND it helps get rid of them, it's win-win-win!

Gwen Stefani...

You know what's amusing? Gwen Stefani was born in October of 1969.
That means she's exactly 36 years old.
That means that any 17 or 18 year olds out there that call a 35 Year old a paedophile and then make claims that they want to tank poor ol' Gwen is
A Hypocrite

Thank you.

Sunday 15 May 2005

TELL ME ABOUT YOURSELF - The Survey
Name:Kushan
Birthday:28th of March, 1987
Birthplace:A hospital in Belfast...fuck knows which one
Current Location:In my room
Eye Color:Blue
Hair Color:Brown
Height:err...I dunno, just under 6Ft
Right Handed or Left Handed:Right handed
Your Heritage:Irish through and through ^_^
The Shoes You Wore Today:Boots
Your Weakness:Trust
Your Fears:I don't really have any...
Your Perfect Pizza:Itallian, with Spicy Salami (Pepperoni)
Goal You Would Like To Achieve This Year:Fully learn C++ (I'm about just under 1/2 there)
Your Most Overused Phrase On an instant messenger:Probably "pfft"
Thoughts First Waking Up:something along the lines of "God dammit...baby's arm..."
Your Best Physical Feature:I'm not gonig to say "cock" because everyone else has done that already...erm...my feet ;)
Your Bedtime:Whenever the sun appears
Your Most Missed Memory:Still the Tent....
Pepsi or Coke:Coke
MacDonalds or Burger King:Burger King
Single or Group Dates:Fuck the date, take me to your place NOW
Lipton Ice Tea or Nestea:Only ever tasted Lipton, it was nice
Chocolate or Vanilla:Chocolate
Cappuccino or Coffee:Whatever has the most caffeine
Do you Smoke:No
Do you Swear:Profusely
Do you Sing:Poorly
Do you Shower Daily:Depends on the season and if I could be fucked
Have you Been in Love:Unfortunately...
Do you want to go to College:If by College you mean Uni, then yes
Do you want to get Married:Not to anyone I currently know
Do you belive in yourself:Nope
Do you get Motion Sickness:Nope
Do you think you are Attractive:Nope
Are you a Health Freak:Nope
Do you get along with your Parents:One of them
Do you like Thunderstorms:Yes
Do you play an Instrument:No
In the past month have you Drank Alcohol:No
In the past month have you Smoked:No
In the past month have you been on Drugs:No
In the past month have you gone on a Date:Yes
In the past month have you gone to a Mall:A shopping Centre, yes....
In the past month have you eaten a box of Oreos:No, but I will soon
In the past month have you eaten Sushi:I've never eaten Sushi o_0
In the past month have you been on Stage:Nope
In the past month have you been Dumped:Not really
In the past month have you gone Skinny Dipping:Nope
In the past month have you Stolen Anything:It's not stealing, it's "sharing"....
Ever been Drunk:When I was like 8....
Ever been called a Tease:Nope
Ever been Beaten up:Nope
Ever Shoplifted:Nope
How do you want to Die:Protecting something important
What do you want to be when you Grow Up:Wanted
What country would you most like to Visit:Japan
In a Boy/Girl..
Favourite Eye Color:Don't care
Favourite Hair Color:Don't care
Short or Long Hair:Don't care
Height:Don't care
Weight:Don't care
Best Clothing Style:Don't care
Number of Drugs I have taken:Only medical drugs
Number of CDs I own:None
Number of Piercings:None
Number of Tattoos:None
Number of things in my Past I Regret:Too many

CREATE YOUR OWN! - or - GET PAID TO TAKE SURVEYS!

Friday 13 May 2005

We are the champions, my friends!

Queen.
It was awesome.
It was the pinnacle of sheer amazingness, it was just...oh god it was so fucking great!
They played all of the songs I wanted them to play, like We are the champions, I want it all, Radio Ga Ga, Hammer to fall and even These are the Days of our lives.

Oh it was just....ohhh....when Bohemian rhapsody played, Freddy was on a big screen in the Background, recorded from a previous concert, I think I nearly cried at one point.

I was kinda worried about the whole concert, considering Freddy definitely wasn't going to be there and Roger Taylor wasn't touring with them either, it seemed like it was going to be some half-arsed tribute but fuck me it was amazing.
And to top it off I was like 3 people away from the stage, w00t!

I'll post pictures later.

But you know I'm in such a good mood right now, I don't care about all of this shit going on any more. Sam, if you wanna be a miserable cunt, fine by me, I ain't gonna bother you any more. Kay, you're still pissed at me, quite frankly I don't care, but I'm not going to chase after you either, if it all still hurts in 4 months, you'll both know where to find me, until then I'm living the rest of my life, I suggest everyone else does the same.

Thursday 12 May 2005

Queen

Tomorrow (or today..) is Queen. Perhaps that will make up for the past week or so.
That is all.
Samurai

You are a Samurai.
You are full of honour and value respect. You
are not really the stereotypical hero, but you
do fight for good. Just in your own way. For
you, it is most certainly okay to kill an evil
person, if it is for justice and peace. You
also don't belive in mourning all the time and
think that once you've hit a bad stage in life
you just have to get up again. It's pointless
to concentrate on emotional pain and better to
just get on with everything. You also are a
down to earth type of person and think before
you act. Impulsive people may annoy you
somewhat.

Main weapon: Sword
Quote: "Always do the right thing.
This will gratify some people and astonish the
rest" -Mark Twain
Facial expression: Small smile




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Tuesday 10 May 2005

Once again, the Meme gets it right...





You Are a Peacemaker Soul





You strive to please others and compromise anyway you can.
War or conflict bothers you, and you would do anything to keep the peace.
You are a good mediator and a true negotiator.
Sometimes you do too much, trying so hard to make people happy.

While you keep the peace, you tend to be secretly judgmental.
You lose respect for people who don't like to both give and take.
On the flip side, you've got a graet sense of humor and wit.
You're always dimplomatic and able to give good advice.

Souls you are most compatible with: Warrior Soul, Hunter Soul and Visionary Soul


Monday 9 May 2005

Wow...

Go here: http://www.lego.com/starwars/default.aspx

And watch the Lego Star wars movie, it's actually really fucking good :|

Sunday 8 May 2005

Oh....Rocky!!!

Tonight, on a whim, I went to see a shadow cast performance of the Rocky Horror Picture Show.
Fucking awesome it was too.
In case you're wondering what a shadow cast is, it's basically a bunch of people acting out the parts of a movie as the movie is played on screen. It's usually done in a cinema.

Rocky being Rocky, they opened the show with the sacrificing of the Virgins. For those of you who are unaware, a "Virgin" is someone who hasn't seen the show live before (i.e. Me).
They get everyone to stand up who hasn't seen it live and then pick 2 people, a man and a woman. Guess who was to be the lucky chosen one....

So there I am on the stage wondering what the fuck was about to happen next, one of the cast asks me to lie on the floor. Next, they get the woman virgin to straddle me by standing over me. Oh fun. Then 2 of the cast grab my arms and legs and proceed to lift me up and down. A virgin I be no longer. And I've got the T-shirt to prove it. Awesomeness ^_^

The show itself was fucking great, I knew the audience participated, but I never knew just how funny it would be, if you're a fan of Rocky and you have yet to see it live, you've seen nothing, it's fucking amazing.

Of course as I knew 2 of the cast, I had to go to the after show bash at one of the cast's houses. And hence why I only returned home at about 7:15am.
An excellent night was had, and to think it all started on a whim too. There's a lot to be said for being spontaneous.

Saturday 7 May 2005

*steals*

I never quite figured out why the sexual urge of men and women differ so
much. And I never have figured out the whole Venus and Mars thing. I have
never figured out why men think with their head and women with their heart.

FOR EXAMPLE: One evening last week, my girlfriend and I were getting into
bed.

Well, the passion starts to heat up, and she eventually says "I don't feel
like it, I just want you to hold me."

I said "WHAT??!! What was that?!"

So she says the words that every boyfriend on the planet dreads to hear...
"You're just not in touch with my emotional needs as a woman enough for me
to satisfy your physical needs as a man." She responded to my puzzled look
by saying, "Can't you just love me for who I am and not what I do for you in
the bedroom?"

Realizing that nothing was going to happen that night, I went to sleep.

The very next day I opted to take the day off of work to spend time with
her. We went out to a nice lunch and then went shopping at a big, big
unnamed department store. I walked around with her while she tried on
several different very expensive outfits. She couldn't decide which one to
take so I told her we'd just buy them all. She wanted new shoes to
compliment her new clothes, so I said lets get a pair for each outfit. We
went onto the jewelry department where she picked out a pair of diamond
earrings. Let me tell you...she was so excited. She must have thought I was
one wave short of a shipwreck. I started to think she was testing me because
she asked for a tennis bracelet when she doesn't even know how to play
tennis. I think I threw her for a loop when I said, "That's fine, honey."
She was almost nearing sexual satisfaction from all of the excitement.
Smiling with excited anticipation she finally said, "I think this is all
dear, let's go to the cashier."

I could hardly contain myself when I blurted out, "No honey, I don't feel
like it."

Her face just went completely blank as her jaw dropped with a baffled
WHAT?"

I then said "honey! I just want you to HOLD this stuff for a while. You're
just not in touch with my financial needs as a man enough for me to satisfy
your shopping needs as a woman." And just when she had this look like she
was going to kill me, I added, "Why can't you just love me for who I am and
not for the things I buy you?"

Apparently I'm not having sex tonight either.


Stoled from Chaela, originally from here: http://www.craigslist.org/about/best/sfo/60286784.html

Friday 6 May 2005

I got bored.....again....

Well yeah, I did it agian, except this time a little differently...


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That's the same display on both ^_^

Pointless..yes..but you know what? I was bored.

Thursday 5 May 2005

Security guard be gone!

Well the time is nigh, 3 days left of school...for ever.
I have Friday, Monday and Tuesday and then I'm free. Free!
Of course there's a Mass on Wednesday (Probably gonna skip that) and then a dinner on Thursday night (Free bar...Red bull me up, baby!) and then all that's left is the exams which don't really matter.

I get this feeling that I should miss the place. Note the term "Should".

Also, since it's coming into the summer I'm getting a new Job and finally ditching the security guard one I've had for like a year now.

The new one is kinda sweet, starts off at £5 an hour and then goes up to £7 after a few weeks. I only work weekdays too, from 7:30am to 4:30pm, but the thing is if I happen to finish early (and on most days I will), I get paid the full wage.
The Job involves sitting in a Van handing out boxes to people for the most part, occasionally we might deliver leaflets and once all of the boxes are out, we just collected them every week or so, it's some recycling thing.

In other words, it's a job that requires minimum effort and will net me about £200 a week AND wont interfere with my social life :D
And yes, I actually have a social life now o_0
My how things change in the space of a few months. People, places, moods, they all change. Some for the better, some for the worse.
Ah but I digress. I need to get a good laptop or something, it'd help when it comes to Uni, but I need to save cash. Although according to some of these student support thingymajigs, most of my fees are paid for with NON-repayable grants (I.e. they give me money and don't expect it back) before it's even processed, so hopefully I should be ok. It's kinda hard to think that in less than 4 months I'll be moving to another Country o_o

Wednesday 4 May 2005

Because it's "cute"

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Perpetual question #685

Why am I watching the porn thinking "you know, that music's pretty good" instead of the usual "Yyeeaahhhh...take it off, I wanna see some skin!"....

Tuesday 3 May 2005

Monday 2 May 2005

Some people...

Did anyone notice the sheer stupidity of 2 people (who shall remain nameless) who commented on my red bull addiction post? (See post before the LJ Hell Party).

If it were a real-life conversation, it would go like this:

"I'm addicted to Red Bull"
"Don't drink it then"
"...."

I think we can all agree that this was a kickass party

LiveJournal Username
How good have you been this year?
Choose a circle to host your party at.
Which evil villain type do you identify most with?
How do you tolerate high temperatures?
Favorite party snack?
EL QUESO ES EL DIABLO.

Spiked the punch.jfkfhhfj
Is showing off their mad skills on the dance floor.squall862
Challenged the devil and won a fiddle made of gold for their efforts.cheshire_neko
Got their arm bit off by Cerberus. Ouch.monkeyking098
Is playin' Texas Hold'Em with some demons.togey
Plans on recounting this party in a large epic poem.cheshire_neko
Just did a cannon ball into a pit of burning lava.evilpete
Amount of money spent on pizza... OF ETERNAL TORMENT.$2,200

Quiz created by Rob at Blog Quiz

Sunday 1 May 2005

Red Bull dun got me fucked up

I've realised that I have a problem. An addiction. One that isn't the Internet.

It's Red Bull.

The effect it gives me is....odd...like some sort of drug. There's a high and a low, a good and a bad. And it also makes me very...odd....

I really noticed it last night when I drank 2 tins of it (see previous post) and then today at work, while sleeping, I had a really messed up dream.
It was...about....some kids, who invented cinema or something...were hiding under these seats, I guess they were the seats in the houses of Parliament or something, in protest of the banning of their creation.
But I wasn't in the dream, it was like I was watching it all as if it was a movie. The guys in the seats gave the people hiding like a month or something to come out, then they decided to go in by force. But when they went in, there were these drawings on the wall..of like...stick figures. And they began moving, telling a story. Something about...some guy...and he found his friend, a turd (That was the word used in the dream) and the little cartoon was meant to be like a representation as to why the cinema thing should be kept.

And that was it...
I usually don't remember my dreams at all and when I do, they're usually focused on whatever is on my mind, like I had a dream that Kay was over visiting my school, except she was all fat and ugly and had chocolate all over her face and in the dream I kept thinking "I know it's Kay, but she's like a totally different person". You can probably see how that fits in with the events of a few weeks ago, so as a dream it "made sense". But that one today....what the fuck....

It's the Red Bull. It makes me all hyper and fun and then I crash and get really depressed, but I need it....I crave it....
Lucky for me, most caffeine substitutes seem to quell the craving, like Coke or coffee (despite the bitter taste) but even so...It's kinda worrying....