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Monday 30 January 2006

Grrrrrrrrrr

Right.
I'm officially single and I'm officially pissed off.

Carmy is a wonderful person, she's one of the nicest people I've ever met, but we don't get along the best at times and I just feel that maybe it's just not the right time to be going out with each other at the moment.
That's fair enough, isn't it? She's got plenty of problems she needs to sort out without the hassle of a relationship on top of them and I myself just don't feel ready to be in one at the moment, is it such a hard thing to understand that putting it off now will be more beneficial to both people later on? I mean, if we're not ready at the moment then we'll end up fighting, irritating each other and just going down the tubes in a spectacular, fiery way. WHEREAS, if we both remain friends for now until a time in the future when we're both ready, then overall there's a greater chance of things working out.

But of course, when you try and explain this, you get accused of just dumping the woman "until I can be bothered to deal with her" and various other things of that nature, no matter how many times you say that BOTH of us are at fault and that BOTH of us need to sort things out before they're ready.

Grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr.....fucking women!

Thursday 26 January 2006

The update has arrived!

Alright, I've put this off long enough now, so I guess it's time for a......

Super mega update o' d00m!

I suppose I should start off with the Krazyhouse. It was Carmy's friend, Chris' birthday last week so we all went out to the Krazyhouse.

Here are some pictures of said night

It's the birthday boy and his missus!



It's me and MY missus:



It's the Malachy and his missus:



Something tells me Carmy was low on beer....



Meanwhile, Dee Dee was secretly planning to murder the cameraman:



But she gave up and started dancing with Malachy:



I couldn't hold back, I just HAD to get into that funky groove too!



Dee Dee and Malachy started getting a little touchy feely....



Don't they make a cute couple? ^_________^

Uhh....Dee Dee, that's a little TOO close....



Notice that Malachy has no idea what's going on....

...He eventually figures it out:



Adam clearly had the night of his life:



After Malachy ran away, Dee Dee tried her old tricks again...



God dammit, I really have to put my ho on a leash >_<

And of course, Dee Dee never misses an opportunity to bury herself into another woman's tits....



But where did Malachy run off to, I hear you ask?

Well, where do you think.....




And while we're showing off pics, here's how my wall-o-can is shaping up since you all last seen it:



Soon I shall have enough......................Sooooooon...........

In other news, the people whom I pay the rent to have been stealing my bloody money. They kept taking too much out for said rent payments so now they owe me £444. Most people would be annoyed at that. I'm not. It's kind of like Christmas all over again, being told that you've got half a grand coming your way :D

To everyone I know online and in Liverpool, I apologise if you haven't heard much from me lately, I've just been too busy with stuff to speak to most people as much as I should, but rest assured that I am reading LJ whenever I can, so I'm up to date with all of you and how you all are, even if I don't post anything.

Monday 23 January 2006

Wednesday 18 January 2006

Today's experiment involves Tea

Team Marybone strikes again!

http://www.livejournal.com/users/maryboneproject/1204.html

EDIT: And once again, we got the b3ta newsletter!

A message to all

I just found out that apparently my dad reads this LJ so erm...

HIDE THE PORN!

<_<

SuperfastLJtobringeveryoneuptospeed

Finished hangman coursework. It came out quite well.
Steve bought me a crossbow, how cool is that? Only problem is it's a bit too powerful but a screw or two will fix that.

My stuff arrived for my DS.
It looks like this:


I'm sure you're wondering what all that stuff is!
Well, from the top left going clockwise:

A USB2 Extension cable
A GBA Flash cart (with some batteries below it)
Driver disk
An SD card.
A USB SDcard reader.
A DS Passme with SD reader.
A GBA card reader/writer.

And what is all this for, I hear you ask?

Well it's simple really.
You plug the GBA flash cart into the GBA card reader/writer and this allows you to write GBA roms you can download off the internet for free.
No more buying GBA games for me! I can just download whatever, flash it to the cart and plug that into my DS. Sorted.

Of course, Nintendo got wise to this by the time the DS came about and they added a sort of verification thingy, so that only authentic DS Games would load. Not to be outwitted so easily, the good ol' Chinese hacks found a way around it and that's what the "Passme" is for.
It's simple really, the Passme plugs into the DS and into the back of the Passme there are 2 slots. One for an SD card (the very same types used in a lot of digital cameras and mobile phones) and the other slot is for an actual DS game. This fools the DS into thinking that you are using a real game and not some strange device from China.
The SD card is for storing your DS roms (once again, freely available off the interweb) and for storing backups of your saves.
No more buying DS games for me!

Speaking of fooling electronics, I somehow managed to make my PC think it was a Wireless router.
So rather than have my PC and my Laptop talking to each other as 2 PC's (which is very slow an inefficient), one now thinks it's a proper wireless router and the other is quite happy to talk to it at full speed without half as many problems as I had before.
And it only took me about 8 hours to get it to work, too!

*collapses*

Monday 16 January 2006

Today was a good day

However, my phone has died yet again so it'll be a few days before anyone can contact me via it.

Friday 13 January 2006

Let me make this just a little bit clearer....

THERE IS NO FUCKING PROBLEM WITH ANYONE!
For FUCK'S sake everyone stop assuming things, NOTHING is wrong with anything. I AM ok, Bex and Ben and everyone else are still friends, there IS no issue, I simply wanted to make something about my personality clear. THAT IS ALL.

Opinionated. Arrogant. Irritating.

These are just a few of the words people use to describe me. Hey, I sound like a bit of a cunt, don't I?

Caring. Kind. Honest.

A few more words often used to describe me. Almost a contradiction in terms, huh?

Well no, it's not.

This is important for all of the people in real life that I know, as well as a few online friends (Like Toxin).

I AM all of the above. I'll freely admit that I'm an arrogant prick, that I tend to throw my opinions at people whether they want them or not. But you have to understand, I don't do it out of spite, I don't do it because I like to piss people off or anything like that, I do it for completely different reasons.
We all make mistakes in life, we all do things we regret later on, but how many times have you made a mistake only for someone to turn around to you and say "I always thought it was a mistake"?
Maybe if that person had spoken up, you wouldn't have made the mistake.
But then what if you were watching a friend of yours make a mistake? Do you just sit back and let them make it or do you say something? It's a tough call and there is no right or wrong answer, but I choose the latter.
I'm not saying I know everything, I'm not saying that I'm right 100% of the time (Despite the fact that I say I'm never wrong, but I'll explain that later), but in any given situation, it's always good to look to others for what they think. Especially when your situation involves other people you have at some point been, or are looking to be, involved with.
A big problem with relationships is that due to countless chemicals floating around in your head, you never seem to be able to see the whole picture with people you want to be involved with. That's true for most people. So when I see someone I am even slightly close to getting into a relationship that I reckon is doomed from the beginning, I will speak to them and tell them what I feel. And it's not because I like hearing the sound of my own voice, it's not because I like to be a bastard by raining on people's parades, but it's because that person deserves to know exactly what they could be getting themselves into.
And it's not just relationships, I apply this logic to just about everything. When Dee Dee was smoking last Sunday, I can't remember my exact words but I think it was something along the lines of "If I catch you smoking, I'll rip the fag from your hand and throw it onto the ground if I have to". Literally every other person who was there at the time agreed with me that smoking was bad and that they really didn't want her to smoke, but they didn't want to do anything about it. That's fair enough, but when all's said and done, at least I can say that I stopped Dee Dee from doing something silly.
If I have something to say, I'll say it and I'll make sure you know about it. There are a multitude of reasons for this mindset of mine, despite the fact that a lot of people do not like it.

Ben and Bex, for example. I know you both have a problem with me and my opinions, but let me ask you this. Have either of you, at any point in knowing me, ever wondered where you stood with me? Have either of you ever wondered if I hated you or anything like that? Sure, I can be bloody annoying and seemingly self-righteous, but is any of that for MY benefit? Not to me. All I'm doing is giving you my thoughts and feelings. I by no means try to enforce them, nor do I look down on anyone if they choose to ignore what I say. It's simply an opinion and nothing more, you can take it into account or you can pass it off as complete bullshit, that's YOUR choice. In the end, if it turns out I was wrong, I'll happily admit that I was wrong. But if it turns out that my intuition was correct, then at least I can say that I didn't sit back and let anyone make a mistake.

Another case scenario involving Bex and Ben, since those are the two people I guess this entry is directed at the most. When Ben was going out with Bex, from the moment I heard about it, I immediately felt that it was a bad Idea and that it wouldn't work out. Now, Ben will confirm this I hope. At the Chinese buffet, Ben said hello to me over at the dessert tray thingy. I can't remember the exact conversation, but it somehow ended up with Ben saying something like "I'm sure you can see why I'm so happy". I remember vaguely mumbling something like "*mumble mumble* yeah I'm happy for you...oooo Jelly....". Now if Ben wasn't drinking that much, he might remember that event and he probably thought at the time that I was just being arsey because we had fallen out the week before. Actually I was fine with Ben, it was just the fact that I could see he was heading for a bit of a mistake, but what if I had said something then? So shortly after Ben being pissed off with me, he would have certainly just got pissed off again and I didn't want to ruin the night for anyone, so I decided to bite my lip in this case. The reason I seemed distracted was because I simply didn't know what to say in place of "I don't see why you're so happy, it's not going to last..." But I'm sure you all know what happened later on that very NIGHT, Ben and Bex Broke up.
Now I'm NOT saying that Bex is at fault, nor am I saying that Ben is. All I'm saying is that I could tell that Ben and Bex just weren't a good match. In the end I was right, but I never said anything and Ben seemed to get hurt over it, while Bex seems to put a lot of blame on herself over it. Bit of a mess there for a while, maybe if I had said something, both parties would be a little more prepared? Maybe it wouldn't have been as messy?

Stupid "what if" dilemmas like that piss me off and I refuse to be put in those positions if I can avoid it.

Luckily enough, we all seem to be friends still, so no major damage was done.

But the point I'm trying to get at is that I don't try to control people or make decisions for them, nor do I try to force my opinions on them - I simply offer them so that person has a greater understanding of what they're getting themselves into.

Imagine you're stuck at a fork in your life, you could go down one of two roads. Now you're thinking about going down the road to the right. All I'd be doing is be telling you "yeah I think that's a good idea" or "I reckon that the left road is better in the long run for whatever reason". I'm NOT saying "YOU WILL GO DOWN THE LEFT ROAD BECAUSE I TELL YOU TO, MOTHERFUCKER!"

The reason I do this, ultimately, is simply because I don't want any of my friends, even the not-so-close ones, making mistakes if they can avoid it. Or at least, minimising the mistakes they'll inevitably make.
In the end, anything I tell anyone is just advice. If I feel someone close to me is about to make a MAJOR mistake, I'll make my feelings on that even more apparent, but I will not force them to make a different choice.
An example of that would be with Dee Dee and Bex. When the possibility of those two going out was being discussed, I blatantly told Dee Dee not to do it. It wasn't out of spite for Bex or anything, I quite like Bex, I just felt that it simply would not work. A few weeks later, we're all back in Liverpool and Dee Dee is feeling in a tight spot. She didn't feel happy in that relationship at all. Once again, at least that relationship ended with everyone still being friends, but once again I was right. But at least this time, I said something and let Dee know what she was getting into.

This LJ entry has gone on for quite a bit and I feel I've got more to say. If Bex and Ben in particular read it and want to hear the rest, let me know and I'll make another entry. I'd also like to know if this changes anything for anyone.

Wednesday 11 January 2006

*Jedi wave o' d00m* You WILL answer these questions!

What would you think If..
** I committed suicide:
** I said I liked you:
** I kissed you:
** I lived next door to you:
** I started smoking:
** I stole something:
** I was hospitalized:
** I ran away from home:
** I got into a fight and you weren't there:

WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT MY:
** Personality:
** Eyes:
** Face:
** Hair:
** Clothes:
** Mannerisms:

[1] Who are you?
[2] Are we friends?
[3] When and how did we meet?
[4] How have I affected you?
[5] What do you think of me?
[6] What's the fondest memory you have of me?
[7] How long do you think we will be friends or enemies?
[8] Do you love me?
[9] Have I ever hurt you?
[10] Would you hug me?
[11] Would you kiss me?
[13] Are we close?
[14] Emotionally, what stands out?
[15] Do you wish I was cooler?
[16] On a scale of 1-10, how nice am I?
[17] Give me a nickname and explain why you picked it.
[18] Am I lovable?
[19] How long have you known me?
[20] Describe me in one word.
[21] What was your first impression?
[22] Do you still think that way about me now?
[23] What do you think my weakness is?
[24] Do you think I'll get married?
[25] What about me makes you happy?
[26] What about me makes you sad?
[27] What reminds you of me?
[28] What's something you would change about me?
[29] How well do you know me?
[30] Ever wanted to tell me something but couldn't?
[31] Do you think I would kill someone?
[32] Are you going to put this on your LJ xanga or other blog to see what I say about you?
[33] Did you notice that there wasn't a number 12?

[BONUS] Do you think it's bad that I corrected a few things in these questions before posting them on my own LJ >_> ?

I'm back, baby!

I am Kushan, hear me roar!
*cough* *hack* roar.... *wheeze*

Tuesday 10 January 2006

Carmy pwns me

I just want to say thanks to everyone who was concerned about me.
I think it was that Spicy Pepperami I ate last night, holy shit it just did not agree with me.
Also, after the Anime Society Chinese buffet thing before Christmas, I felt a bit crap too, although I didn't puke then.
I think spicy shit just doesn't agree with me *shudders*

But I have to say, Carmy was there for me. She went and got me stuff from the shop, she made sure I was comfortable, heck, she was just awesome and I can't thank her enough for it!
I feel kind of bad because she felt she had to go home, but when I'm feeling better I'm going to make it up to her.
Well I've just vomited all over my room

Monday 9 January 2006

Hurrah for China!

I got the entire 8 seasons of Stargate SG-1 today.
Rather than pay like £30 a season, I paid about £70 for crazy Chinese bootlegs! And you know, they're bloody good bootlegs too! Even came in a pretty little box. Well actually it's not that little, but anyway.

Lets see,

£30 x
8
-----
£240

£240 -
£70
-----
£170

A saving of £170!

So I took that saving and went on a shopping spree with Carmy! W000t!

I've settled back in quite well, all I gotta do is unpack >_>
And tidy my room <_<

Man I suck.

Saturday 7 January 2006

I'm back!

Well I'm back in Liverpool and I've arrived safely.
I have to admit, I'm glad I'm back.
I'll always return to Ireland once in a while to see my dad and my friends there, oh and of course my cat, but if it wasn't for those reasons, I wouldn't go back at all.
I did enjoy Christmas and New year's eve as a whole, but I think the biggest thing I got from it was the knowledge that I made a good choice coming to Liverpool.

I just feel more at home here :)

More on that later.

Friday 6 January 2006

Stupid MEME's....

I've noticed a lot of people doing MEME's lately, but me being me I decided that I would be different.

So I just made my own....

LiveJournal Username
How do you Know Kushan?
How cool is Kushan?
Favorite Family guy character
Person you want to sleep withtolly1989
Person that wants to sleep with youbonhair
How much you're worth for a quickie$7
You have slept with Kushan and were shitTrue
Kushan has slept with you and was shitKushan is never shit in bed
The amount of hours you've wasted watching porn2,190
What Kushan says about youI wish there were more people like you!
What Kushan really thinks about youSo this is what it feels like to be in a coma...
Fun Quizzes by Kushan at BlogQuiz.Net


What can I say, I'm only ever good in bed with someone else >_>

Wednesday 4 January 2006

What IS a dick ticket, anyway?

Inside Jokes are fun.

Anyhoo, today I went out with the lads to have a nice big Steak. 16 oz is quite a considerable amount you know. Piece of piss eating that son of a bitch ^_^
Then I came home and had a cake. That's not a typo. I ate a full cake.
See, that might shock a lot of people, but you don't know how big the cake was. I mean, a jaffa cake is technically a cake and they're tiny!
Not that it matters, it was a pretty big cake anyway >_>

I like cake.

I also like the Future Sound of London, if anyone else has heard them, please comment here. I'll be surprised if anyone has.
I'm tired.

I completely forgot to mention what happened last week!
Picture me sitting at a table in the pub by myself because everyone else went to the toilet, bar or to gamble. Then some woman directly facing me, also alone at a table, starts mouthing something that I can barely make out because I'm practically blind. It's a noisy pub so whatever she's saying isn't being heard by anyone. She then starts pointing in my general direction.
Now from my point of view, some random woman looks like she's talking to me and trying to get my attention. Why? That doesn't make sense, so I casually look around behind me to see who she's talking to and there's nothing but a big, brick wall. Damn. She IS talking to me then and I've just realised I've made a complete tit out of myself by looking around like....well like a tit!
So I get up and move over to her table to talk to her and see who the hell she is. Well I'll be damned, it was none other than Sarah, the Coffee girl I got obsessed with over the summer!
It was nice seeing her, making the fine impression that I did. I guess Ireland has some bad vibe that makes me less of a person or something. At least in Liverpool I stand out, people seem to think I'm special or good company or something.
Or maybe Ireland does that to everyone, because Jim came back and sat beside me (remember I moved tables) and said "hey......who stole my seat?" Then I believe Kev came back and said "hey someone stole my coat!". Idiots.
Yeah, Ireland makes people suck or something.
Still feels good to be Irish though ^_^

EDIT: I edited this to add a single comma. I have problems...

Sunday 1 January 2006

I just want to point something out...

This is why google is the best thing ever:



They just know what you really want.